emotions to me right now are like a tv that can't be turned off
annoying, distracting, and biased in a way I don't agree with.

A teenage boy has three reasons associated with each action.

The excuse

The reason

And the emotion

you are alone
and we are one
the universe has no company

to attain perfection is to lose the game for once you've won you cannot play

when does an action become an action of the soul and not the cell bag?

just to warn anyone who cares, blogger for word destroys custum menues and unlike a good word plugin fails to back up Normal.dot

I look in the mirror and what do I see?
I see a reflection of the physical me
I look in my soul, what image does it hold?
And I ask myself who am I?
No answer do I hear,
the question rings in my ear.
With no image,
maybe I,
can prove it wasn't me,
who did lie.
It wasn't me'
but the cell bag that you'd see,
if you saw me.

poetry can be two things

an attempt to communicate an idea too large for words

and the lack of anything to say

if the universe ever came back to the state it is now
it would continue that cycle forever

I have been alive a long time

see how much I have contemplated and done

Mozart was ancient when he died

yet I am still 14

you walk down a road

and you come to a building

you move through time and you make a choice

that choice was already there

already made

just like the building

If time is a dimension then we are not free
for we would have no choices but to be

there is something odd about me.
the perfectionist who mis-spelled the title to his blog

I just added a hit couter that only works with ie...

you are your own prophet

the meaning of an angry father
my dad is like a tree
if I aproch and prod his roots
they turn to dust
and I fear that he will fall on me

I would like to ammend the saying "don't trust anyone you meet online" to "don't trust anyone, not even your father"

Tim’s theory on emotion part 1.

I presume you have heard the fraise “be fruitful and multiply”.

Imagine a disk jockey at a disco. (I presume you have never been to a disco). This disc jockey sets the mood in the room by setting the music. The goal of the jockey is to keep people dancing. He/she wants the dancing to continue because they get more tips that way. (some amount of he tips put in the jar at the drink counter go to the jock. )

Now imagine that this jockey does not have to work though music to set emotion but can do so directly. This jockey wants you to be fruitful and multiply.

I think that there is a second conciseness in the human mind that sets emotion. A caveman. Who only wants you to follow it’s fraise. The fraise is not the same all ones life. It changes with puberty and children. The reason I say this is the emotions of a child are different than those of a teen are different from those of a parent. I have never been a parent and do not remember childhood so I can only tell you the teenage command. I also think it is different based on gender. I think that some peoples emotion jockeys stress fruitful more and other people’s jockeys stress multiply. Some people are better a at resisting their emotions than others. And some people jockeys are better integrated into there minds. I think that my emotion jockey is badly integrated. Here is why.

Before I got depressed I was trying to move away from humans. I wanted to lock myself in a room and program. This was very against the second directive, so the emotion jockey put on despair and cranked the volume. It nearly killed me. I remember in summer 2005 I when 3 days without seeing a single person. When I went outside and saw the neighbors kids playing tag. The jockey turned on happy so high I started giggling uncontrollably. I think this kind of insensitivity that my jockey shows means that said jockey is somewhat removed from my concise mind and can’t see the logical reasons why overdoing emotion is bad. When you get mad you don’t think of logical reasons so your jockey keeps cranking anger. But when you do see a logical reason not to be angry your jockey stops right?, because your jockey can see into your mind. Mine doesn’t.

Two types of emotional lack of control.

1. The jockey does not see that it is being stupid because it has no view of the reasoning portion of the mind.
2. The reasoning part of the mind gets swept away by emotion so it does not even try to come up with reason an emotion is insane.

sometimes it seems to us that most most prominent thing in our lives is the small message in the back of our minds tht reads "dieing please wait". Other times, we are just glad for the delay.

Tim Qoutes
theory of stock
Pride comes before a lull
Despair comes before a fall

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